so as my body wakes me up at 7 am this morning, the day of my move back to Greenville, I find myself dreading the whole move entirely. I feel like I had such a life changing summer here at home, that I fear for my relationship with God more than ever as I drive back to spend my last year of college in a town that I've never really received God's love from; or, actually, I was just denying it.
However, these words encourage me : "Also, seek the peace and prosperity of the city to which I have carried you into exile. Pray to the LORD for it, because if it prospers, you too will prosper." Jeremiah 29:7
As I sit here worrying about the move and not understanding why I ever chose ECU, I sit and read this scripture and I am at peace with all my worries. I realize that I was sent to school here to be placed in exile. Sometimes you've gotta fall down alone to fall into God; and if that is God's will...then let it be. I am just hoping that my faith only continues to grow and I really start accepting God with my whole heart. And also, through this scripture, God tells me "yeah, you were sent there, but if you love on your city, not only will your city be better, you will be better". So I understand what I need to do. I need to find a good church in Greenville, a good community group and people who will hold me accountable for my actions. I need those kinds of people in my life in Greenville who will call me out lovingly because they want me to see my sin and understand that what i'm doing is not lifting up my lord. And I'm not just saying this because it is scripture, i am saying this because I know God has a plan for me in Greenville. I just really want to get back into pouring my heart out onto people. I am really hoping this year I have many opportunities to really throw myself into my schooling/teaching, my faith,volunteering, and running. If it is God's will for anything else to prosper in my life, then it will happen.
all in all...i'm excited, nervous, interested, and ready to start learning how to really live.
so here I am.. ready...set...go.
